I wanna b a guy?

im a gal bt iv alwys wishd 2 bcm a guy. i nvr hd ny crush n a guy n i dnt knw y i dnt lyk doin gal stuff i luv plyn cricket n stf d@ boys do. nw im 18 n ma mum's thnkn d@ im gttn closer 2 da age f gettn married but i dnt knw im nt a les but i just wanna b a guy n i hv nvr tld ths 2 ny1 coz im scared n im so scared f ma future coz ma mums hvn so much f plans i dnt wanna hurt hr 2 but stl i cnt b wht im nt. plz guys hlp me wht am i supposd 2 do i wanna chng ma but i dnt knw whr 2 do it o wht tht kind f opprtn is clld im frm sri lanka n i rly nd help plz plz plz help help me just dnt knw wht 2 do i dnt wanna hurt ny1 but stl i wanna b a guy